I hate this feeling.

I hate it.

I HATE it.

I hate IT.


A roll of glossy, grey duct tape.

I might as well be wrapped up in this.

My hands are cuffed behind my back, I’m locked into a closet with a bag over my head and gag is shoved into my mouth.  The feet are duct taped just in case.

Figuratively speaking.

It might as well be true for all the good I can do.

throat diagram

Her trachea is NOT happy right now.

My sweet little Angel Kiss has The Cough of Hacking Up Internal Organs.  And today, it really kicked into high gear.  As a result, she now has The Sore Throat That Hurts So Much She’ll Be Lucky to Get Sleep Tonight.

Today she napped for thirty minutes total, thanks to The Cough.  She is so exhausted.

Tonight, as I put her to bed, The Coughing Fit hit her over and over.  The Sore Throat caused her to cry, which set off yet another Coughing Fit.  It took an hour of snuggling and extra nursing to get it to stop long enough to get her to fall asleep.

And then, just as I started this blog – not 30 minutes later – The Cough turned into a The Coughing Fit yet again. Computer Guru is still with her.  And it’s quiet.

For the moment.

I’m waiting for a triage nurse to call me back to see if there is Anything I Can Possibly Do for her.  I know the cough medicine was removed from the market for kids this young when my son was a baby.  So other than a warm bath, shower, or humidifier, I’m almost certain there is nothing I can do about The Cough.

But I’d really like to treat the sore throat with something.  And she’s still a little young for honey. It’s that rawness that flares up when she coughs that is keeping her awake.

I know.  I was there a few weeks ago.  I was miserable, I couldn’t sleep, and my throat hurt.

But at least I had medicine to take.

The triage nurse finally called. Pretty much confirmed everything I knew, only she did say I could give her honey as she’s over one year.  No antihistamines, no cough medicine, not even Vicks to rub on her chest (as she claimed that could make the cough worse).  Warm fluids, steam/humidifier, elevate while sleeping.

Oh, and make an appointment.

Where they’ll tell me the same damn thing, I’m sure.

I hate being helpless.

viagra is a commercial produced medicine conta...

Something is wrong that we can buy this, but nothing to ease our baby's pain.

I want my baby girl to feel better again.  I want her to be able to sleep and get rest. I want her throat not to feel like she’s skinned a few layers off.

I want to take that pain away.

Other than the acetaminophen I gave her, any suggestions???

I better try to get some rest while I can.  Otherwise I’m likely to go into a rant about health care, doctors, and how there’s Viagra but nothing to help a baby’s sore throat or cough.



About Kelly K @ Dances with Chaos

Kelly K has learned the five steps to surviving of motherhood: 1) Don't get mad. Grab your camera. 2) Take a photograph. 3) Blog about it. 4) Laugh. 5) Repeat. She shares these tales at Dances with Chaos in order to preserve what tiny amount of sanity remains. You can also find her on her sister blog, Writing with Chaos ( sharing memoir and engaging in her true love: fiction writing. It's cheaper than therapy.
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